My Story 

Hey guys! Today I am sharing my story. It’s not an easy thing to share with people but I have been getting better. I hope it will help someone out there.

Jeremiah‬ ‭17:14O LORD, if you heal me, I will be truly healed; if you save me, I will be truly saved. My praises are for you alone!
  

I’ve always gone to church (literally since I was 10 days old) , & I became a follower of Christ when I was young. I was baptized when I was 8 and truly desired a relationship with God. I was that kid that seemed to have a perfect life; I came from a “perfect” home & was involved in every activity I could. Life was smooth sailing as a kid. 
    However, when I was about 11 I began to have problems with my ankles. At the age of 12/13 my feet & ankle condition worsened and I began living in chronic pain. Guys, never assume you know how much pain someone is in, people can hide it well. However, after going through 6 exemplary surgeons who literally had no idea how to fix my feet & ankles, I was loosing hope. I went through depression, chronic pain, and panic attacks at night at only 14 years old. And through all of this, I told NO ONE about the depression & panic attacks. To make it worse, everyone I knew still believed I was that girl w/ the perfect life. No one even realized how much physical pain I was truly in either. It was living hell. I almost self harmed many times. My thought process was that maybe if I caused myself the pain, it would be easier to accept the pain I couldn’t control. All I wanted was to be able to just WALK or be able to sleep without pain and feeling like I had to hide and pretend to be fine all the time. Thankfully, I have an amazing Savior, He was able to strengthen me and teach me a lot during this time of darkness. Although it was difficult, I had to completely surrender to & trust God. 

   Multiple surgeries enabled me to walk again without chronic pain, however it was ultimately God who healed it all. I can honestly say that without my faith in Jesus, I wouldn’t be walking, or probably even alive. I continually praise God! For I can now sing “It is well with my soul” & truly mean it. That right there is the best feeling ever. One of the many verses that helped me through this time was Isaiah‬ ‭66:9In the same way I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born,” says the LORD. “If I cause you the pain, I will not stop you from giving birth to your new nation,” says your God.” It was a great reminder that even if I was suffering in the moment, God wouldn’t bring me this far and not deliver me. There was a reason for all of this, I might never know what it was, however, I am okay with that because God is in control. 

‭‭‬ ‭ I am only 16, however I plan on being in youth ministry & pray that I can impact the lives of others and show them the love of Christ. Although we might not understand why we go through things, I can confidently say that with God, even the worst darkness can be turned into light.

Here are some other verses/quotes that made a huge impact on me during this time: 

John‬ ‭16:33I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.

Job‬ ‭6:10‬ “At least I can take comfort in this: Despite the pain, I have not denied the words of the Holy One.

‭‭ ‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭4:16-17‬That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day. For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!

Hardships often prepare ordinary people for an extraordinary destiny.” -C.S. Lewis

‭‭‬ ‭”Nothing is permanent in this wicked world, Not even our troubles.” -Charlie Chaplin

Habakkuk 3:19 The Lord God is my strength, my bravery. He will walk me through places of trouble and suffering”

James‬ ‭1:12‬ ‭“Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.

‭‭”Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly.” -Anonymous 


One of my favorite poets is Erin Hanson and these are two of her poems that helped me. It wasn’t until way after my surgeries and recover that I told people about what had gone on. But guys, not telling someone was the worst mistake I made. Please, if you are dealing with anything, tell someone. 

Thank you so much for reading! I hope it was able to help someone. 💜 -Maddie 

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Youth Group Lake Trip

Hey Guys! This past week was “Water Week” which meant that anyone could surprise the others at their houses and get them wet in some way. On Wednesday night we had a massive water balloon war (they had food dye in them) and a slip-n-slide. The lesson my youth pastor, Terry, gave us was that water is mentioned in the Bible many times as “the source of life” and how trees and plants grow better when they are connected/close to the source of water. It is the same with us! When we as followers of Christ are spending time with Him and worshipping Him, we grow. However, when we disconnect ourselves from the source (God) then we tend to fall back and our relationship with Christ falters. 

To finish up water week, this past Saturday my church youth group went out to Possum Kingdom Lake for a fun day at the lake. It was so much fun! We went on a party boat, speed boat, tubing, swimming, cliff jumping…it was one of those days where it was impossible not to be happy. It was so perfect that it felt like I was in a movie. ​

​”If all your friends were jumping off a cliff, would you jump too?”😂

My best friend, Harley, and I jumping together. 
      Harley and I on the speed boat.

Selfies with my favorite 💜

This was our party boat. Yes, it had a waterslide! 🌊

Here’s me driving the party boat! 

*Special thank you to Mr. Todd for letting us use his boats, picking my youth group up off the side of the road after our church van broke down, and for an awesome day! 💜 
-Maddie

Dating, Courting, and Marriage


Dating, Courting, and marriage are all intimidating topics everyone has to face at some point in their life. There is much controversy (especially in the homeschooling community) about whether dating or courting is the “correct” method for pursuing a relationship. There are also many questions on how to go about relationships and marriage.
    When it comes to pursuing a relationship, I think a person should first think about their motives. If a person is wanting a relationship to fill an absence in their life, to get temporary pleasure, or just to “see if it works”, then that person has the wrong motives. Some motives and goals to strive for are to be committed, grow closer to God, and to give/serve. You see, whether you call it “Dating” or “Courting” doesn’t honestly matter. The label doesn’t define the outcome. The motives and intentions behind the relationship, the commitment to each other and to God, and the effort put into the relationship is what defines the outcome.
      I believe it is very important to have values and convictions, and not just to have them, but to stand by them as well. “If you don’t stick to your values when they’re being tested, they’re not values: they’re hobbies.” Because of this, who you choose to have a relationship with is extremely important. If you are in a relationship you will either marry that person or breakup with them. Therefore, to spare heartbreak. It is good to have standards before you ever begin entering relationships. One way to “test” whether or not a person is a good candidate for a relationship or marriage is by inserting his or her name in place of the word “love” in 1 Corinthians 3:4-6. For example: “Alex is patient and kind; Alex does not envy or boast; Alex is not arrogant or rude. Alex does not insist on his own way; Alex is not irritable or resentful; Alex does not rejoice in evil but rejoices in the truth.” If “Alex” and his or her life doesn’t coincide with those statements, then “Alex” isn’t someone to enter a relationship with. (Also, try replacing the word “love” with YOUR name and see how true it is.)  Some other qualities to look for are: Good with children, loves God more more than you, a leader, genuine, hard working, respectful, shows love, kindness, and purity. Although these are important, making sure you have the qualities you want in a spouse is equally, if not more important. “Attract what you expect, reflect what you desire, become what you respect, mirror what you admire.
    So what do you do from there? If a person seems like a good potential partner and both people express a mutual attraction, what happens next? Personally, I believe that the man should ask the parent’s permission to pursue and relationship with their daughter. This not only shows respect for their opinions and their daughter, but in turn they will respect the guy as well.
When it comes to the actual relationship, both them man and the woman should sit down and discuss their values, standards, and goals in life. Just to make sure they are both on the same page. “You can’t walk together if you are going different directions.”
Not everyone is going to get married, some are going to stay single. However, although Christians need to stop idolizing marriage, as Christians we also need to stop idolizing “Singleness”. Serve God the best you can while single; and when you are in a relationship that causes you both to serve God better together, then that’s how you know they are the right person for you.
     It seems like in our culture there are more people divorced or living together before marriage than people actually married. However, this is not what God intended. People have the mindset of “We’ll see and if it doesn’t work out, then we will break up.” Having this mindset is practicing for divorce. Working together to figure things out and putting effort into a relationship is what will help it grow. Marriage is a covenant between a husband, a wife, and God. God says in the Bible that women are to be submissive to their husbands. However, people have twisted and confused this statement. Being submissive doesn’t mean allowing abuse or the wife doing whatever the husband says. It means trusting and listening to each other. Right after the scripture which says for the wife to be submissive, it tells husbands to love their wives. If you love someone, you don’t use them or try to be more powerful. Submission goes both ways. Both husband and wife are equal. No one is higher than each other. One of my favorite phrases is “Men and women are equally valuable, and purposefully different.” Not only does this apply to women and men in general, it also applies to marriage. Both husband and wife are equal in value and worth; no one is above or below the other. However, they were created for different purposes and “jobs”. Ezra Benson said, “Marriage itself must be regarded as a sacred covenant before God. A married couple have an obligation not only to each other, but to God.”
    Although relationships, dating/courting, and marriage are all very important, pursuing God, striving to do His will, and serving Him should be our ultimate goal in life. Elisabeth Elliot once declared, “I have one desire now: to live a life of reckless abandon for the Lord, putting all my energy and strength in to it.

My Love for Audrey Hepburn

Audrey Hepburn is seriously one of my all time favorite celebrities. Society thinks of Audrey Hepburn as a fashion/beauty icon and actress. Which, she was. However, there is so much more to her life that you should know. 

   Audrey was born in Brussels, Belgium on May 4, 1929. She began her ballet training during her time living in Amsterdam. She could speak 5 languages, Dutch, English, French, Spanish, and Italian. During World War II, her uncle was executed and her half brother was sent away to a German labor camp. “We saw young men put against the wall and shot, and they’d close the street and then open it and you could pass by again…Don’t discount anything awful you hear or read about the Nazis. It’s worse than you could ever imagine.“—Hepburn on the Nazi occupation of the Netherlands. Her father was a Nazi sympathizer who abandoned her family. Audrey Hepburn also helped in the Dutch resistance by delivering messages and packages, and performing ballet at fundraising events.  She was so grateful for her own fortune during the German occupation that she dedicated the rest of her life after giving up her very successful acting career to helping impoverished children is some of the poorest countries. Hepburn became a Goodwill Ambassador for UNICEF. On one trip to Ethiopia she said, “I have a broken heart. I feel desperate. I can’t stand the idea that two million people are in imminent danger of starving to death, many of them children, [and] not because there isn’t tons of food sitting in the northern port of Shoa. It can’t be distributed. Last spring, Red Cross and UNICEF workers were ordered out of the northern provinces because of two simultaneous civil wars… I went into rebel country and saw mothers and their children who had walked for ten days, even three weeks, looking for food, settling onto the desert floor into makeshift camps where they may die. Horrible. That image is too much for me. The ‘Third World’ is a term I don’t like very much, because we’re all one world. I want people to know that the largest part of humanity is suffering.”


She visited many many countries helping life for children and people everywhere better. Even after her death on January 20, 1993, her legacy and impact on the world lived on. “How shall I sum up my life? I think I’ve been particularly lucky.” — Audrey Hepburn. 


There are so many celebrities that we can choose to look up to. I personally choose look up to Audrey Hepburn for she is an amazing example to young women and people everywhere. Here are some quotes of hers that I love: 

-Maddie 💜

Giving God the Glory🌱

I feel like so often we get caught up in a legalistic viewpoint of religion. One where “I did this, you did that. It was MY help that brought them to Christ.” As humans, we want to take credit for things, and there are times you can be proud of yourself (in the right way). However, especially when it comes to God and the work of the Church, we should stop glorifying people’s work and aspirations. I was in a service one time and Dr. David Busic was speaking. He said that so often people ask him what is his view for the church or what are his goals for the church. He went on to say that it doesn’t matter what his personal thoughts are! It only matters what God’s goals are and what His will is! While doing the work of God and following His will is of utter importance, in the long run, it is God who helps the seed grow. We should give Him the glory instead of getting ourselves caught up in the legalistic religion that the world wants us to be. As human beings we want people’s approval and glory. But remember what Galatians‬ ‭1:10 says, “Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.”‭‭‬Another scriptural example is found in Colossians‬ ‭3:17 “And whatever you do or say, do it as a representative of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through him to God the Father.” This reminds us that no matter how amazing our work is, in the end, we need to give the glory to God because without Him, no good would even be possible. It’s God who makes the seed grow. 🌱

-Maddie

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Response to Dallas Shooting


This is my response to the shootings in Dallas that happened recently. I live in the DFW metroplex so I’ve been near where the shootings happened many times. We all hear of tragic/horrific acts happening all over the world but I feel like it doesn’t really hit us as “real” until it takes place where you are. I was devastated to hear that police officers and other innocents were shot in the protest. People have the right to protest. It’s in the constitution. In fact, the police at the protest and the protesters were together peacefully when the shooting began. Guys, the police ran TOWARD the gunshots in order to protect the other protestors and innocents around them. That is real bravery. An innocent cop being killed is just as bad as an innocent civilian being shot by a cop. Jon Stewart commented saying, “You can truly grieve for every officer who’s been lost in the line of duty in this country, and still be troubled by cases of police overreach. Those two ideas are not mutually exclusive. You can have great regard for law enforcement and still want them to be held in high standards.” 
 Thank you to the police for your sacrifices, I am eternally grateful for your service and work. Here are some really powerful quotes and scripture verses to reflect upon as these horrors are among us: 

Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.” -Martin Luther King Jr. 

I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear.” -Martin Luther King Jr.

More than cleverness, we need kindness and gentleness.” -Charlie Chaplin

Nothing is permanent in this wicked world. Not even our troubles.” -Charlie Chaplin 

John‬ ‭16:33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

‭‭‬ ‭James‬ ‭1:20 “because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires.

Guys! We need to be the church to the world! We need to act like CHRIST and love each other and be compassionate. Jesus was TORTURED and DIED for people who hate and disrespect Him. Murder is murder. It doesn’t matter who commits it. Please guys, remember “Kindness is a language that the deaf can hear & the blind can see” -Mark Twain

-Maddie 

Loving the Unloveable 

Hey! I recently read a quote on Pinterest  (my weakness) & it really struck a chord with me. It said, 

Now, this is not a hate on other Christians however, I think as followers of Christ, we need to do a better job at loving others. Remember, GOD IS LOVE. If we aren’t loving towards EVERYBODY, then we aren’t showing the world the character of Christ which is what the title “Christian” claims with the meaning, “little Christ.” Contrary to common belief, love is an action. You don’t have to agree with someone or believe the same things to love someone & show them the love of God. By hating people, bashing them, and being hurtful, we are not glorifying the Lord or helping the world see Jesus. In fact, it is doing to opposite. I challenge you as you read this to (although it might be hard) love people. Serve people with the mindset of Jesus Christ. When you do this, you will be amazed at what starts to happen in your life. Here is some scripture to reflect upon that has helped me and my journey with loving others. 💜
Ephesians‬ ‭5:2 “and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

Ephesians‬ ‭4:2‬ ‭ “Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.”

‭‭1 John‬ ‭4:8‬ “Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.”  

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‭‭‬ ‭ -Maddie

Independence Day

Hey! I just want to start out saying that I am SOOO thankful to live in the United States. I understand that other countries are amazing (I’ve visited them!) however, I am so privileged and thankful to be an American. I want to thank all the men and women who have sacrificed their time, lives, and families for my freedom. It is not forgotten, and I am eternally grateful. I love the lyrics from the song, “God Bless the USA” which say, “‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land, God bless the USA!” I truly love living here in the U.S. 🇺🇸🗽🎉 Yesterday was the 4th of July, or Independence Day, & I got to celebrate it with one of my BFFs, Ashley. We had a mini photo shoot while we were there. Here are some pictures: 

Ashley ❤️
She is so cute 💙
OOTD: White Bermuda shorts & gray shoes from Target, Navy T-Shirt from Old Navy, a red bandana , & patriotic nails w/red lipstick.
I ❤️ her
We felt so hipster 😝✌️

Welcome :)

Hey! My name is Maddie. I am a Junior in High School, Texan, home schooled, 2nd Degree Black Belt, violinist, pianist, blog lover, and most of all, I am a Follower of Jesus Christ. 🙂 This blog will be me writing about all sorts of things between things going on in my life, things I am learning about, devotionals, and so much more! The title of this blog is from the verse Psalm 34:5 which says, “Those who look to Him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed.” I hope this project of mine will encourage you, and help you in some way. If you want to read more, follow my blog to keep up with my posts. Love Y’all! -Maddie